Heaven and Earth

Do I despair?
Do I cry?
Do I trade in my soul for a happy life?
Do I create problems?
Do I create fear?
Just to become someone this world doesn't need?
Do I throw myself off a cliff or a tower?
Do I cry in in pain or have my thoughts devoured?
Do I throw myself at life's merciless' hands?
Do I ask the wind for one more chance?
Do I hold my heart and rip it out?
Do I take a knife and stab myself?
Do shout out from the top of my lungs?
Just to feel Heaven on this Earth?