chance will be left to chance

so i live in fury
i live in pain
i live my life with glooming sadness
day by day

i stop to think
i stop not to weep
i stop, i listen
i cry, silently i scream

i hold myself in the corner
against the wall
against the moment
that i want to feel warm not cold

i talk to myself
through my thoughts
insanity takes over
my passion, my heart, my all

i stop, i look, i listen
i turn around - its as if something is missing

i remind myself of an image of a smile
a phrase i used to hear when i was a child
'don't be scared, it'll all pass'
'whatever it is, it will pass'

tears falling down
raindrops from clouds
lovers kissing in the rain
today is bad, tomorrow is just another day

heart beats race faster than before
chance will be left to chance no need to be lectured or implored

day of dawn
sunset night
this is my dying testimony
silver bullet. goodnight