An Open Book

How many times has it been since you have been in touch with yourself emotionally? How many times has it been since you last knew what it was you really wanted in your life? When was it last that you felt that without that; you're nothing, imperfect - just a mirage?

I feel now that I know what I want from my life. What I would like to be. Who I want to share my life with. The kind of life I wish to create for myself. The kind of friends I wish to hang around with. I feel that I know now this more than ever in the past.

But how is this possible?

I mean, it was only a little time ago that I didn't know my nose from my foot. And now this?

Does it matter really? To some it doesn't - to me, it does.

I want to learn the art of marketing through advertisements, promotional debutes and such. I want to be able to direct people to the right way of putting their image for the camera of life. An angle which many people dispute that it has many complications.

I want a woman who will want me for me. Someone who will accept me as I am and not try to alter my personality or anything else for that matter within me. Although there will be comprimises, I realize, but that shouldn't stop negotiations for the look of the other half of my soul.

I hate smoking & drinking, so I expect my friends to be of the same. To be able to share jokes and be open-minded about many issues within our lives. Differences of opinion will only makes become more closer to each other.

I want to die happily knowing that I have done everything with the very person that I love all my life has always been there with me through thick and thin. And I don't mind having to go to the extreme to show my passion for them either. I am one love-sick fool when it comes to matter of the heart.

I am as all my friends and family have acknowledged.. An open book.