if only you knew

"It takes great patience to have a man become who he wants to be and what he wants to achieve."

If you look at the end of last week, you could take it from two perspectives. One of them is the positive look - that it's just the end of last week; or you could look at it from a pessimist's point of view - its merely the beginning of next week.

That's the classic empty/full glass theory.

What brings this to mind?

Read along, if you're interested to know:

If you're left on your own. And you know that there is something inside of you that you have no control of unless you utilize mental pressure on it to keep it at bay instead of letting it control you and taking you over.

The sheer feeling of being alone can tend to make think suicidal at times. I try so hard to push it away by making a busy, funny atmosphere around me and in the end resulting that I would just feel happy.

But let's face it. I can't come to exert that sort of pressure on myself all the time because of the fact that it would seem too weird to me if everything just went right as well as the fact that it would throw the balance of nature off it's course. Another reason is because control is just an illusion to us all. We think we have the ability to control our desires, our actions but the truth is we are merely pawns in a never ending story of life. The lives that we lead.

And before I get carried away in philosophy, I return to the question at hand.

If we are left with a destiny that we are to accomplish, if we are destined to bump into each other no matter the odds, why then.. the torture?